Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you feel
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
Maybe you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you feel
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
Maybe you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
Maybe you find some comfort here

wow... 90 posts. will do one on malacca soon. don't have the time to use the comp. so gotta use my laptop. went for CSC today. it was really fun though it was three hours straight.i don't know but these days i get pissed off so damn easily. guess going to church today did me good. not forgetting to novena with my grandma tomorrow. so yeah thats about it i guess.


If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/d/daniel-bedingfield-lyrics/if-you_re-not-the-one-lyrics.html -]
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

just freaking tired...

You know I don't mind if you think I should grow my hair
You know I don't mind if you pick on the clothes that I wear
But know I can keep my head when all around me are losing theirs, because

I am who I am
And you can't change me
I've done what I can
And I'll stand my ground
You're tying my hands
You rearrange me
It all falls down
It all falls down

Why when you dream do you see me as something I'm not
Why don't you wake up and see all the good things you've got
A heart isn't made out of clay
Not something you shape with your hands, understand

Is the reason you ask me to change so that you stay the same
Well I'm sorry if I keep disappointing you again and again, but

I am who I am

argh... soo tired! its like what 6.20 am . woke up at 5am to send my bro off to hong kong. AGAIN! played some badminton or rather a lot of badminton yesterday with yanee yu shao and zi yi. my knees were so sore after that. will be going to malacca tomorrow. miss that place already even though its only been like three months. especially St John church. nothing much to buy there though. just to eat the chicken rice and zhu char there. haha.
Hopefully i can get a new pair of specs before poly. hopefully. haha

so... its been exactly 365 days since my op. in a blink of the eye its been a year. like i said this journey has taught me many valuable lessons. although i would have prefered to not go through it but i believe there is a reason why i have to go through it. right now i am just thankful for everything as it is. a year ago i was so scared and confused not knowing how to approach this whole episode. looking back i can only learn from past experiences and hopefully put them to good use. what may come in the future, i may more or less know what i have to go through but hey, i made it this year. it can only get better:)

Have not been able to post foR quite a while. Who cares? Ha ha. Poly is going to start pretty soon.went for a medical check up today. Had to wait so long. haha... On the serious note i gotta decide if i want to continue physio. The last time was two years back. Though i am doing quite okay my kegs are starting to ache so often. Honestly i dont tink it helps and its so expensive. Haish... Will decide when i have too. Hopefully i get to blog soon. Till then!